Christmas Special Gift for him

May you have...

enough success to make you proud

enough trials to keep you strong

enough luck to make you smile

enough work to keep you challenged

enough of all life's treasures to keep you truly happy :D

C.O.N.G.R.A.T.U.L.A.T.I.O.N.S
on your graduation, Cameron Constantine..
19.12.08

Every so often, the RIGHT thing happens to the RIGHT person for the RIGHT reason..!

On Our Anniversary

It's gotta be LOVE

to have lasted this long.

We've racked up some years,
but we're still going STRONG!

You're ever my SWEETIE,
my number one "squeeze".

Your SURPRISES can still make me excited!

Your silliness still puts a SMILE on my face.

I feel right at your side
in your loving EMBRACE.

I still feel so HAPPY,
my heart's overflowing...

happy 7th anniversary, conB.. :)
wishing the two of us happiness and love always...

love you the most,

W.

11.12.01
11.12.08

Twilight: girls' desire of a man.

I just saw the movie Twilight last Sat. I fell in love with Edward Cullen when i was watching the movie. He is a gentle, warmth, protective, and responsible man!!...all basic criteria a girl wants from a man to love and to be loved..oh so sweet...^^ ignored the vampire side, please!!
This movie is categorized as one of my fav. Although it's about vampire, werewolf, and sth like that but in my point of view, the main story isn't just about that. It has a deep meaning inside..it's about unconditional love story.

I know it's just a movie, just a fiction story and character, but doesn't mean that there's no such a man like him! A story comes from someone's idea and the idea often comes from someone's experiences. I think it's a perfect example for men of how they should behave to a girl they love :)
It shows us the power of a relationship should be. NO sex, NO harsh, JUST trust and respect..It is the most important thing in a relationship..trust the one u love and respect as well..u'll hit the jackpot ladies and gentlemen! hahahaha :D

Eniweiii...after watching the movie, i'm curious about the novel. I like to read btw, and from my experiences, almost all of the movie based on a novel is not as good as the story in the novel itself. So i plan to buy the novel. Lemme guess..it sold out everywhere...and it is! i didn't find one. Only my sis get the book #4, Breaking Dawn, at Periplus SMS. But i don't want to read it before i read the previous 3 books..just wait :P

p.s: my friend joked during the movie: hey...hey...there's a lot of nice scenes for pre-wed pictures :P *swt* (ga lupa deh doi, merusak suasana wkt itu!! hahaha) this pic esp for her..enjoy doi!

Welcoming Christmas 2008..

December,
it's my favorite time of the year. Rain is falling n the weather becomes windy, although there's no snow falling in this country, but the windy weather is enough to make me happy hihihi

Christmas is near and is coming..
Since i was a child, i used to celebrate Christmas every year and my parents always making this moment so special in their own way. I miss those moments i can share, laugh, and celebrate Christmas with all my dearest little family (mom, dad, and two of my elder sisters) in my hometown, Sukabumi...it's a nice memory will always be stored in my heart.

Everything is different when we entering December. The Christmas decorations are everywhere, the songs, the events, and the feeling of my heart...oh can't describe it but i'm very happy to welcoming Christmas =)

This year, my happiness begins with i get back my dad's Christmas songs. The Carpenters!!!! It's my favorite Christmas songs everrrr...my lovely bf searched n downloaded esp for me^^ thanks to you babe..u always know how to make me happy :')i only have the cassette belongs to my dad since he was young. I always listen to it every year. It reminds me of my childhood Christmas and its feeling...For some people their songs are old-fashioned but for me it's still up-to-date and will always be in my heart for my entire life. I have memorable Christmas moments in all Carpenters' Christmas songs.
A few years ago i lost it and so sad i can't find everywhere bcos it's soooo olddd!!! no one sells it. Luckily i got it now...and can't stop listening to it :)

My top eight of The Carpenters:
1. Merry Christmas Darling
2. Christmas Waltz
3. Christmas Songs (Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire)
4. Sleigh Ride
5. Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
6. I'll be Home for Christmas
7. Winter Wonderland / Silver Bells
8. It's Christmas time
(ups..hard to delete one of them from my fav songs ever :P)

Actually for Christmas songs, i prefer the old ones than today's collection. And Carpenters' is not out-of-date..i bet u'll get the peaceful of Christmas when hearing to it.
Happy listening to you!

i love Friday!

In the middle of my shopping time with my mom n sis, the same woman from RBS Bank called me. She invited me to have another test, SHL, kind of IQ test, on Monday. Ehm...it means i passed yesterday's EPT :P yippeeee! I don't imagine this quite fast. okay, I passed the EPT and i'll have another problem, SHL. Gosh, i have tried it once months ago and it was difficult!! i don't like it hiks..but i have to...help meee help meeeeeeeeee......
Hm..let's see on Monday. I'll do my best!

Honestly, I'm not really interested in hearing this news TONITE bcos i was shopping at that time hahaha doesn't mean i'm not happy but i enjoy shopping better than anything..yepsss...oh i love shopping a lot!!! so i have to work hard for fulfilling my desire hehehe meaning that i have to pass this SHL test so that i'll get the job! Go on girl...

Talking about shopping, today is the last day of Debenhams' sale at The Hall, Senayan City 8th floor. It's really bargain..Swatch 30% off (usually never on sale), but unfortunately there're some watches left T_T and there still many items and brands are on sale, big sale, most of them 50% off. i regret just come today. should come in the beginning of the sale, the items are still hot hahaha
oh...i love this Friday :')

EPT?

I was enjoying my free-lazy day when suddenly i got a phone call from RBS Bank (formerly ABN AMRO Bank) informing that i will have an English Proficiency Test tomorrow at 8 a.m. at LIA Pramuka as my 2nd round..(it means i passed the 1st round, 1 on 1 interview few weeks ago...yippieee)

Okay, what is EPT actually? Is it like TOEFL test? i dunno exactly what it is whereas i am the alumnus of English Department, quite embarrasing tho :P. so i called LIA, asked about it and i searched on google..and there it is..it's actually the same kind with TOEFL test. EPT has 4 levels: elementary, intermediate, high-intermediate, and advance. Lemme think, maybe for a job seekers, we belong to either the 3rd or 4th group bcos as i tried the online test, the topics and languages are quite different from TOEFL test. It's about business world..

After i tried several tests, the results are around 75...*sigh

So tonite i just ehmmm...need a beauty-sleep...cos it needs high-concentration when u do the test. also, i don't know where LIA Pramuka is (it's farrrrrr from here) so i have to go earlier in the morning, hope there'll be no morning traffic, and wish the taxi driver knows directly the place :')
g'nite everyone...

Intercollegiate Seminar 2008

Intercollegiate Seminar is English Department of Atma Jaya University's annual event. This year it is held on 21-22 November 2008. There are 25 papers to be presented from various universities: Atma Jaya, Bina Nusantara, Indonesia University of education, Widya Mandala, Maranatha, State University of Jakarta, and Sanata Dharma University. Fyi, i am one of the presenters :P well, it doesn't come from my deepest heart, it comes from my lecturer's offering and a bit forcing hehehe..

eniwei, i got the schedule to present my paper on the 2nd day at 10.30 - 10.55 but i did it more or less for only 15 - 20 mins including the FAQ :P i'm lazy to re-make my presentation, so i just present the original i used for my defense hihihi and luckily i can answer all the questions HA.HA dunno whether my answers are clearly satisfied or not =p

As a presenter, we have to sign the attendance before entering the room and we got an Atma Jaya paper bag containing a bundle of our papers, a pen, and a note, all in UAJ mode on. There was 4 session that day. The first 2 session was held before lunch time and the rest was after lunch. We also got snacks twice. The audience weren't many. I think 90% are Atma Jaya students. yeah, u know, just a small amount of people who like attending the seminar events rite?? hehehe As for me, i don't like to attend this kind of event. it's just so boring i think...zzz...so sleepy and it makes me got headache :'( but i was still in the room until the end of the seminar bcos one of my friend presents hers after lunch session so as good friends...suit..suiw..we are there to support her :)

The event closed at 3 p.m. and i got the certificate as a presenter...ehm...maybe this is the one that makes me happy to be the presenter :D

After whole boring day, me n my closed friendswent to Grand Indonesia, kongkow-ing n window shopping, cos they'll have midnite shopping...yeay!! It re-charges my spirit and loses my headache hahaha
Thanks to Intercollegiate Seminar 2008!

Prepare myself..

Tomorrow i have to attend Intercollegiate Seminar and present my paper. I don't have any excitement for this event, maybe it's all because i have to go back to my paper and study it well and prepare them well..*fiuh* There'll be Q&A session, and if i can't answer it...wohohoooowww...'apa kata dunia?!!!' i hv to do my best, i guess.

Now i'm preparing my speech and it seems that i can't remember all of it well..my defense was almost 3 months ago and i never look back at my paper since that. Now i have to study over again. Oh my...what should i do? i have to go teaching in the afternoon and it seems i only have little time to prepare it..
hehehe i think i'll bring some notes as a 'contekan' if i forget some :P tricky mode on :D

so, wish me luck everyone...

Can or Can't....?

Today i was having a quality time with 2 of my besties and we're landing on Starbucks, a nice-to-have place for gossiping :P
In the middle of our conversation, a question came up in my mind...

w: guys, do u think that someone can change his own nature behaviour?
c : hm...i think so, actually it depends on he himself.
y : in my opinion, he can't change it totally but at least, he can diminish it, if he wants it to.
w: errr...okay! but it's such a hard thing to do, isn't it? sometimes i think it can't be changed although u want it badly.
c : it can be! believe me..my dad was a stubborn person. (fyi, her dad is one of the nicest guy ever, very caring and loving person to his fam, esp to his wife...so sweet...)
w: i give u an example, for some cases i am a short-term-memory kind of person esp. for something outside my business (if someone asks me for a help, for instance). I really don't want that happened but it happens out of my control. my bad, dunno y.... :'(
Another example, how about a temperament character? is it possible to change and remove it??? i know it's really really a hard job, but can't it? it's one of the characteristic i hate much!!!
e : maximized your reminder! hahahaha :p j/k
well, i think it's a bit harder to change the 2nd one. but u can always have it!
y : well, 1st example, u absolutely can change it. U just have to struggle with that and have an eager to learn. Big effort is needed!
2nd example, maybe u can change it but it's a bit harder than the 1st one. so the possibility is less than the 1st.
e : but still, u can, if u said so!! the choice is yours =)
w: um..okay! *still wondering*

At the end, we came to a conclusion..."it is easier for u to change some bad characteristics, for which u can have other ways (incl. ur big longing) to keep it away slowly but sure. Reversely, u have less chance for some bad characteristics to be changed or even be reduced. But nothing is impossible! it's all depends on you yourself."

So...what's in ur mind? ^_*

Rainy Saturday

It's been raining outside..
Thunder bolt lightning with the dark sky cover this whole weekend.

- i wish my weekend is not as dark as the sky -


W.

Book Review: Matilda...a genius girl ever!

I've just finished reading Matilda by Roald Dahl, a children novel recommended by my friend. This book is awesome! I think i'll read another children novel as an intermezzo in my free time. It refreshes my mind. I don't have to think it over getting the meaning of its story, yes...it's for children for sure! hahaha

Anyway, Matilda was an extraordinary gifted girl. She was kind of a genius five-year-old child who was rather ignored than being loved by her parents. She started reading newspaper in the age of 3. and by the time she was 4, she came by to a public library every day and read all of children books and began to read adult-literature including Dicken's and Hemingway's.

Her parents never paid attention to her brilliance. They discouraged Matilda's eagerness to read. When it came to school, Matilda was a brilliant student than others. She could read all reading passage given without hesitation and do the math just the calculator does. Her teacher, Ms. Honey was surprised to see her amazing intelligence.

Unfortunately, the headmistress, Mrs. Trunchbull, was kind of a monster for the students and she was Matilda's foe. Matilda used her brilliance yet magic trick to fight with her father, mrs. Trunchbull, and to help Ms. Honey got back her rights that was taken over by Mrs. Trunchbull who exactly her wicked-aunt for the last 20 years. She had done few miracles in doing so. And at the end, Matilda sort of "won the game". She was placed in the 5th grade at school (twice her age) by the new head master in school. Her teacher also got back her inheritance and her aunt was totally disappeared. Matilda was happy to have Ms. Honey as her teacher and a friend and the story ended with her moving to her teacher's house because her parents moved out to Spain forever.

Relaxation mode: ON

Yessss...at last i tried to do reflexology this evening! :) sounds not interesting?? hahaha but for me it sounds exciting and interesting cos it's my 1st time doing it and the result was soooo greattt...^^ my legs are lighter hehehe or it's just the feeling?? yeah, at least, my bf feels it, too!
eniwei, i choose Nano reflexology in Pluit bcos the place is new and good, classified to the high-class one and the price oh-so-cheap! you just pay Rp.45000,- for 1 and a half hours with that facility. I heard from some people that the owner of this place is Mrs. X who wants to have her own business just for fun, and her f***ing-rich husband, who loves her so much, opens this business. Rumours said he doesn't get much profit from it. It's just for fulfilling his wife's wish...what a lucky woman..

ok, here are the lists why you have to choose Nano (although i haven't gone to other reflexology, but i think i'm in love with this place hihi..)
1. the location is quite easy to find (just across Pluit Junction)
2. the place is nice, clean, and comfy
3. the chairs for doing it are all lazy-boy complete with a tv (local channel, fashion tv, and dvds) and head phone for each.
4. there r more than 50 chairs and many workers, too (we dun have to wait for long even though the place is full)
5. we also get a clean pillow and a blanket. (it makes you keep warm and comfortable)
6. we have 1 and a half hours to do while almost others just give you only 1 hour.
7. the important thing is the price!! for happy hour 10 am - 12 am on weekdays and weekends Rp. 30000,-. 12 am - 10 pm Rp. 45000,-. 10 pm - 12 pm Rp. 75000,- really worth it!!!!
8. and last but not least, the good and content services...The workers both male & female have a strong but nice power. (my bf and i did it at 7.30 pm, full of customers condition, and they still have it^^)

In my opinion, there is only one less point which should be taken care of, the waiting room!!! Although there is a small supermarket we can shop in, but there r only 9 or 10 seat for us to sit in. so when i wait for more or less 20 mins, i just stand up and walking at the supermarket.

Overall, i feel happy and enthusiastically satisfied though!!! really wanna come back next time :P
too bad i didn't take any photo ='( will do next time! today's reflexology my bf watched dvd and i didn't. i just listened to my songs and...slept! zZZ.....................oh...............zZZZ...........................................zzZZZ.................................................^^

Waiting for something....BIG!!

This blog is the continuation from my dilemma part..
- Oct 20, almost 400 girls tried their luck for being a SIA's stewardess. As for me, i did my SIA's walk-in-interview and the result was great :) i passed the 1st round: we are a group of 10 people and we have to stand up and come forward to answer the interviewer's question 1 by 1. Still in the same day, 3 people from my group continued to the 2nd round: English test (like simple TOEFL test) and followed by reading test: read a passage both in English and Indonesian. Again, i passed this round and the woman informed us to come at 10 a.m. tomorrow to have an interview. I felt happy and somehow can't believe it^^.

- Oct 21, i had my 2 in 1 interview at about 11.30 (1 and a half hours late from my schedule). It took 20 - 30 mins interview. Actually they asked so many questions about me, my life and my plans related to this job. Both the interviewers (man & woman) are nice people..They tried to make me relax..
Fortunately and surprisingly, i passed this round :D. However, 2 of my friends from my 1st group, failed. Dunno what the criteria they r looking for...
For those who passed, we would have a briefing at 4 p.m. so i waited till afternoon at JDC.

- Oct 27, i got an email which informed me that i got my turn for the final interview on Nov 5 at 11 a.m., while 4 of my friends i knew, got their turn on Nov 4. It's based on the alphabetical name..Actually i didn't prepare anything for my final interview on Nov 5 bcos my sis and 2 of her children came home to Jkt surprisingly. So i had my days full of happiness and tiredness for 2 weeks hehehe

- Nov 5, i came to Mulia Hotel Senayan at 10 a.m. and i came in the inteview's room at 11.20 (20 mins late from the schedule...better this time) This time both of the interviewers come from Singapore, Chinese-Singaporean and Indian-Singaporean men. I did my interview in relax mode but still nervous..I think this time is simpler than the previous one.
After i finished it, i waited for the result nervously...and when the woman called me to go out from the Rose room, i knew already my result whis was i failed this round T_T

Honestly, at that time i feel so sad of my failure. My effort for getting in till this final round is not easy..Can u imagine, for almost 400 girls that would die for this job hehehe, only 38 girls who got in to the final interview. and i thank God for it! I'm one of them. I've done my best and the rest is His best plan for me. That's my prayer. If i got in, then i'll be thankful and keep me being humble. But if i failed, let me take in good part. I don't ever regret this great chance happened in my life.
I believe that we as human can only make plan but only God will make the best decision for us. Just wait patiently, God knows the path you trod..He stretches our patience to enlarge our soul.

So...now i'm just.............waiting for something....BIG! =)

Happy Graduation...=)

Yeay..!!! Thank God i did it.. :D

Monday, 27 October 2008 is my graduation day. i really am happy and proud of myself. I've finished my study and done my job as the youngest daughter in my fam..that's my parents' wish, seeing their 3 daughters finish our study! We all did it!! and...here i am,
Wilma Wilianti Tantranegara, S.Pd.
Eventhough my father is not acompanying me, i'm sure he is smiling in heaven watching me=)
here are some pics...enjoy it!

my luvly mom *cup*

my wonder man :P

my best gossipers girls ^_^

kebaya mode

Fusion Sushi Platter @ Takigawa

Last weekend, after whole morning spent at campus meeting my lecturer for discussing my intercollegiate paper, me n my bf decided to go to Senayan City. As we wanna go to XXI, we passed by Takigawa Japanese restaurant. It's not our 1st time walking past it, but it's our 1st time seeing that 50% f&b disc banner using ABN AMRO cc. *blink-blink* well, i haven't tried this resto b'cos it doesn't attract me from the outside. So i just ignoring it. But this time, with the "iming-iming" 50% disc, i asked my bf to eat there and try something new..hahaha quite 'basi' i know! so we entered this resto n picked the window seat..

Well, anyway, i stucked on fusion sushi platter. It has 3 thumbs up. Actually it's only the combination of 5 fusion sushi on the menu which serves 3 pieces/each kind of sushi, and i think it belongs to the top sushi there. and b'cos i was starving at that time, haven't eaten anything yet from the morning, so i wanted to order this^^. *rakus mode on* While my bf wanna try something unique, Kamameshi-Takigawa which also has 3 thumbs up. It is steamed rice in traditional Japanese pot with various ingredients and lots of sluruuuppp seafood at the top in the picture. cooking time: 20 minutes.

After a while, the sushi came first. it serves in a big plate and looks nice..maybe b'cos i was starving..it looks like an ordinary sushi now hehehe :P Know what, in the menu it is written 15 pieces combination of sushi. However, we got 4 pieces/each..it means 20 pieces of sushi...lucky us! :D

Fusion Sushi Platter (rp. 129k):
Takigawa roll (in the middle), California roll (the one topped with salmon), Hot & Sexy roll (the one rolled with tobiko), Caterpillar roll (the one topped with avocado), and Dino Lovers roll (the one topped with grilled eel)

(hot & sexy roll)
i like this one better! it has hot green chili inside the seaweed that makes the taste unique! chili sushi...yummy!!

(takigawa roll)
he likes this one better!

Kamameshi - Takigawa (65k):
eel, crab, salmon, scallop, prawn, chicken, and vegetables steamed rice.

All mixed up with the rice crust and eat in the Japanese lil bowl behind the pot.
The taste is just average, not too special, we think..and the jumbo seafood in the picture, it's fake, they chopped the seafood into pieces.

For me, today's winner is Hot & Sexy roll..chili sushi..Yummy!!! the others' taste are quite the same with another japanese sushi i think. i wanna try the dessert next time,, it looks like nice but i can't make it for this time b'cos we both overly full. Overall, we like the food and we'll come back soon before the promo ends hahaha b'cos it's a bit overpriced without the promo for that taste, esp the kamameshi :P

Nightmare di siang bolong

1.48 p.m a lecturer from English Department called me.

Mr : Hi, may i speak to Wilma?
W : I'm Wilma and sorry, who am i talking to?
Mr : I'm Mr. R from Atma Jaya
W : oh..hi Sir, what's the matter?
Mr : Actually, I want to ask u to join the Seminar Intercollegiate 2008 as a presenter b'cos your Scientific Paper is classified to one of the best out there. We have just had 5 papers from Atma Jaya and we still need more. You know, we organize this event and it's silly if we only have 5 besides 15 presenters from other universities. So we choose the best ones based on the Scientific Paper score.
(wth...i'm avoiding to join this annually event ='( lazyyyy...)
W : um..when will it be held?
Mr : It'll be held on November 21-22, 2008. But if you have a job already, you don't have to come for every session. Just come for the time you're gonna present yours. Just add the abstract of ur paper n submit it to me/Ms. T. Okay? You can discuss it with ur mentor 1st.
W : (oh noooo..my "luvly" mentorrrr againnn) um...ookay, Sir..(i don't have any other options T_T don't know how to reject it..my bad!!)
Mr : So..can i have a soft copy of your paper this Fri?
W : huh? u mean complete with the abstract?
Mr : yes. The abstract is just 1 or 2 paragraph so you can do it in 1 hour probably.
W : (yes, if i'm not lazy hahaha) can i submit it to you next week? b'cos i have to discuss it with my mentor, rite?
Mr : oic..Okay, if it's possible, please submit it on the beginning of next week.
W : okay, Sir..see y *sigh*

ouch...shittt..a few months ago i was laughing, hearing 2 of my friends were asked to join this event and now?? OMG it happens to me..fiuh..
I know that presenting my paper isn't that bad, it'll bring advantages though. At least, u'll get a certificate, u learn how to do a presentation in front of public, ur paper will be published in the event's collection, and...that's it..i dunno the other LOL
I think i'm just lazy to do that:
1. i have to re-read my paper.
2. i have to make an abstract of it.
3. i have to prepare well for any questions will be.
4. i have to again..re-contact with my "luvly" mentor(nightmareee)

yup..the last number is the hardest thing for me i think lol...he's just a weirdo-mystical-creature in this universe! agreeee??? i can't show one by one of his weirdo acting but i'm definitely sure that English Department's family (esp his students, co-workers & ex-examiners) know well of his unique behaviour :P maybe b'cos of that he's still single although he's already 30 sth. eniwei, he's smart and helpful and some people say he has a good-looking (not for me ;p)
hm...what should i do? should i make the abstract? oow,,dun have any desire for that!!! should i contact him now? ooh-no..not now i think! i just hope that i got the SQ job so that byebye intercollegiate hihihi :D
what about y'guys?

Dilemma

Lebaran holiday is over...hm..for me, actually, everyday is holiday since i hold my Bachelor's degree last month though i still have my part-time job as an English teacher in Grow Up twice a week. But it's kinda different for people around me, let's say my bf and my sis. They really enjoyed the work-day-off. Me??? of course i was happy cos i got free-week of teaching and everyday i had lots of activities: my bf asked me to go out (dating, eating, or fam day-out) or just came by to my house^^. As my sis, she always wakes up earlier than me which sometimes it really annoys me..c'mon, it's holiday and she wakes me up in the morning.. but i don't know why, i'm happy for that. Seeing that i can still gather with her n my mom, just sharing each other and talking bout everything=) i love every single moment like this. As you know, my dad passed away 12 years ago and my 2nd elder sis has been married and she's in Kupang for good, having their own business and taking care of their two wonderful children. I miss them so much..

Ok, back to the topic, everybody back to work, and me...still at home, enjoy my free-lazy-day, all day browsing, chattin, blogging, and keep thinking. Thinking of my future job, thinking of my life, thinking bout everything!! As a matter of fact, i haven't applied for any job yet. Still confuse about it. I don't wanna be a teacher which is my major i took. I wanna be a stewardess, yessss...SQ stewardess hehehe but pros n cons about this job. This job came out in my mind for about 6 months ago when i saw my church friend being a SQ stewardess. wow..what an interesting job! you can travel all around the world which is my goal in life hehehe i know, this one is only the advantage besides there are still many of disadvantages. Anyway, being a stewardess is my 2nd dream when i were a child. My 1st dream is being a teacher, and here i am..a part-time teacher. So now, i want to reach my 2nd dream but I don't want to sacrifice everything just for getting this job. NO! Otherwise, I keep praying for this decision and I believe God will give me and guide me to my best.

I wait for the open recruitment expectantly. A few days ago, i open the website and they'll have a walk-in-interview this Oct 20. WOW..i'm so surprised and can't wait for the day. yippiiiee..i'll try even though i don't know yet whether i'm accepted or booted out, at least..i try!
Now, i have a doubt of it. Okay..if i am booted out, i can continue my life and try another job. If i'm accepted, here comes the problems. Is the job best suited me? Can i do the job with the pos n many of its neg aspects? Do i really want it? How about my family? How about my almost-7-year relationship with my bf? and many more...
From his point of view. Deep in his heart i know he doesn't want to let me go. A part of me says so, but this is my life..i just starting my life to reality. Is it sounded that i'm an egoist person????oh..this feeling keep in my mind..somebody helps me?
Surprisingly, my lovely bf keeps supporting me even though only 20-30% i think :P and it's normal. No one can easily let the loved one go. The only promise i can give is i never cheat on him..and i'm sure he knows it..but it doesn't mean that i or he can't find someone else. Only God knows! and as the "pepatah" said "kalo jodoh ga kemana" which i believe that statement ;p and i always talk like this to him hehehe

Well, I think i write too much about this-unclear-complicated thing hahaha... I'm really in a dilemma T_T but still, i'll do my best on Oct 20! =)

Just a Beginning...

Blogging...
What are you thinking of when hearing this word?
It is booming nowadays, more or less for a few years ago. Many people create their own blog and keep showing to their friends. For me, when i hear this word, the one that comes out in my mind just a weird and not-so-important activity. Just writing your personal life n whatever topics you want to write about and let people read yours..it's just nonsense and out of my mind...and i can say: this is so not me. It doesn't mean that i don't like writing diary. I do write diary everyday since i was in junior-high as what the other girls do and i love it. But it's different thing. You write about everything in your diary and you keep it yourself, not share it with others. It's a kind of your privacy. Yes, it was my opinion about blogging..

Unexpectedly, a few weeks ago, i read my friend's blog and it is very interesting one, i think (thanks to you, A. :P). In a moment, a thought came up in my mind. "Hey..why don't I start making my own blog?" Gee..i just kept thinking on that. I re-think of my opinion about blogging and it makes me a dilemma. On one side, this is just errrr...but on the other side, luckily, i still have a think that at least it'll bring an advantage for me. I know that writing is not as easy as you think (i did writing 1,2,3, and academic writing classes in my University which i hate it so much!!!). So, i think it's a good start to improve my writing skill, for developing my idea and speak my mind up. I can write about everything i like and maybe that's the difference between the writing class i had and the blog/diary i have hehehe. As you know that i'm an introvert but people person and i'm categorized as a good-listener, not as a good-story-teller..hahaha yeah...maybe because of that stuffs so i like keeping my own stories and not sharing it :P

Surprisingly, after a deep thinking, today, i decide to make my own blog and i'll start writing. So, just wait for another stories of mine and i can say that...hm...i'm in love with it! =)
hope that i can improve my writing skill by doing this..see ya....and wish me luck! ^w^